choices

it's been awhile since i last blogged here... a lot of things has happened to me last month... my grandma passed away, i got myself a boyfriend and dumped him the next day, i got myself a new best friend and i learned a lot of things too...

it's really crazy how one can adapt to life and it's struggles... one morning you're as fragile as
a petal and the next thing you know, you are as hard as a rock...

i don't know what life has in store for me... everyday i am humbled by the fact that change is the only constant thing in this world... thus i don't plan long-term already... as much as possible... i now live in the moment... what's the point in planning when you don't even know when the wind of change will begin to blow?

i am just happy that i got my wish that my first boyfriend will remain my friend after the relationship is through... although i feel bad to what i did to him... i'm just lucky that he tried to understand me... although i don't even deserve it... he still remains my friend.. i hope he finds the girl that will stay with him through ups and downs...

my best friend is someone i am actually scared of at first... i was scared to fall for him completely... (he was/is my crush) ... but lately... i can sense that now that we agreed to be best friends... my feelings are kept in check... although he did break-up with his girl at first coz of me... (evil me... unknowingly)... i realized that what i feel for him is not enough to let me take the risks... so we are better off as what we are...

my grandma's death was really nice... she got to bid goodbye to people that she cared about and she was able to fulfill her Christian duties until the very end... not everyone are blessed to die in such a way... although i miss her presence at home... i know that she is happy where she is right now... for i know that the kingdom of God is also hers'...

i am amazed with all the things that has happened... i know that all things happen for a reason and lesson in life... that is what keeps me motivated... life is indeed crazy but it teaches us to be right in this crazy world... maybe not now... but soon...