maturity does not always come with age

for pete's sake... you are already twenty years old. in fact, in a couple of days you'll add another one to your age. your supposed to be acting like a man now but you're not. You are like this one big spoiled,selfish baby. you ask why the 'rents won't trust you? it's coz of your darn actions man... i sometimes have this hateful emotions directed towards you coz of ur stupid actions. why do i always have to be included in all the by-products of your thoughtlessness?

you say that you care about this family and all. yes, those thoughts and ideas are quite heartwarming. i hate to admit but i think all of these are just talks. you are a man full of talk and no actions. i freakin hate you for that. why can't you.... just for one minute... think about the emotions of the people that care about you the most? i may hate you over and over again but i know that i'll also be forgiving you again and again.

that is not the point though. my point is that, the pain and anxiety of caring about you may recede over time. but the thought of having to feel and undergo it a couple of times more is much more scarring than the reality. i am so fed up with all the ensuing fights around the household... some created by the 'rents themselves and some created by you..

i know you just want to take some time for yourself but please take a hold of the time that you spend searching for yourself and finding a vent for all your mixed up emotions.you are not the only one suffering, we all are. i do hope that you mature emotionally soon.

if only you can get to read this and know that it is you that im talking about. you are not getting any younger... you should start to straighten up your life and find your life's direction.